I haven't written in awhile, and there's a good reason for that. I've been swamped with school, work, and getting settled in my new place. Ah, the joys of adult life.
I took on this second degree because I thought it would help me get a job, but I've managed to succeed without the education. The degree might still come in handy, but the work I'm being forced to do feels like too much of a sacrifice to make right now. Still, I'll finish this semester and the next (since I'm receiving loan money for this year) and then reevaluate after that point. It's a long march to Christmas though, let me tell you.
I'm not made for the academy. It's too rigid, too serious, too distanced from the real world. I know what I want, but I'm not sure how to go about achieving it. To be a writer, to live off being a writer...it requires writing, I'm told, and I need to find the time to do it. And that means school goes to the sidelines for the time being. As soon as these two semesters are behind me. I'll be nearly halfway done with the degree at that point as it happens. It's something that will probably be done, but slowly. And I have to keep on telling myself that there's nothing wrong with that. Sometimes you have to take some time to put things into perspective, reevaluate what is truly important in life. Life has to be more than the completion of an endless series of tasks. They should be tasks contributing to a greater sense of well-being. In a way, much of what we do works against us. I imagine it's true for me too, imagine that I'm working against my peace. Still, having the degree might be rewarding in the long run, in ways I can't foresee. I just need to keep things in perspective for the time being.
It's nice having my own place and also a little lonely. I'm not heartbroken to be single as I once was though. In fact, it's gotten to the point that I'm not sure I'd know how else to be. I suppose that someone will come along sooner or later. Until then, being busy keeps my mind occupied, and I'm thankful for the burden I carry in that sense.
But scholastic obligations call me yet again. This weekend it's an annotated bibliography for a project analyzing the rhetoric of counterculture music. We'll see what I can come up with by tomorrow.
Here's to a peaceful week for all. Remember to take some time for yourself. It's more necessary than you know.
